DAY FOUR:

Yes, you read right. It's day four. I messed up big time. I started smoking almost regularly again. I feel so horrible. Like all of that stuggle was for nothing. I will say that I have a different state of mind this time. It doesn't seem so hard. It's day four already and these last three days have been a breeze. Not like the last time. It was so hard the last time. My first three days were tough. I probably said I was doing good and not having any problems just to encourage myself, but really it was quite difficult.

So, anyways....here it goes again. I'm starting over. So, it's day four.

Life is a struggle.