DAY FIFTY-NINE:

Well, I didn't post because I didn't think anyone read this blog anymore and I have pretty much left the habit totally behind me. I rarely think about it at all anymore. I think about a week ago I had a slight craving. But it was more cause I was with all smokers and I didn't want to be left out. But, I went outside with them while they smoked and just didn't. Yeah, you can do that.
The only thing that disappoints me about quitting smoking is the fact that I thought I would reap more rewards.
Yes, I smell nice. And my breath is much better. But, I really thought that when I didn't smoke I would definitely get MORE kisses, but that hasn't seemed to happen yet.
So, to anyone that might read this that can do something about it, well, hey, you're lacking in my smooch department!!!
I'm just playing, hon. But you should give me more kisses.
Tomorrow marks two months.
Not bad.

DAY FIFTY-ONE:

Wow. It's day 51. That's a lot of days. Time for one of my calculations: Let's see: 51 days times 20 cigarettes per day = 1,020 cigarettes that I have NOT smoked. 51 packs of cigarettes times $4.00 average per pack = $204.00 that I have NOT spent on cigarettes. 1,020 cigarettes times 11 minutes = 11,220 I have spared from my life. 11,220 minutes divided by 60 minutes in an hour = 187 hours I have saved. 187 hours divided by 24 hours in a day = 7.79 days I have saved for my life.

ONE WEEK. I have saved ONE WEEK of my life because I have not smoked.

Now, that is an accomplishment!!!

Congratulations, Natalie!!!!

DAY FOURTY-THREE:

I know that no one reads this, but I continue to update it for my own sake. Today is now day 43. Still going strong.
I am really proud of myself. Last night I went to two different bars and drank and I still did not smoke. And the funny thing? It wasn’t even hard. I had no problem at all. I remember saying once after I sang at open mic and was shaking in my flip-flops that I needed a cigarette, but it was just nerves and the feeling quickly subsided.
So, I can’t really say it’s been 43 days since I have smoked a cigarette, cause technically that is not correct. But I can say, I have gone without a cigarette for 43 days.
So, yeah for me.
I am awesome and everyone knows it.

WOODLE - EE- HOODLE!!!

Nat

DAY THIRTY-NINE:

Ok, if you are paying any attention to the dates, then you would say, "Wait a minute, it's not day thirty-nine, it's day fourty-one." But, unfortunately, it is not. I smoked the last two days.
Now, don't get upset. I am very disappointed in myself. I did it for all the wrong reasons, but was done is done. I can't take it back, I can just continue with my journey. And I have to say, even though I smoked pretty heavily for those two days, I am not at all having a problem today. I don't even feel the difference. This morning I had a little craving, but it was quickly resolved with a single bite of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream. (In know, that's horrible, but hey, it went away.)
So, technically, if you wanted to be a dick about it, this would be day one again. But screw that noise. I had a two day break, that's all. So, I'll subtract those two days I messed up and count this as Day Thirty-nine. And if you don't like that, well, kiss my ass.
Ok. So, day thirty-nine it is. Which means my two month anniversary would be two days later than the 29th, so my new anniversary date is on the 31st (or st) of each month. I'll just say the last day of the month from here on out. So, with that said, only 22 more days to Goal No. 2

DAY THIRTY-EIGHT

Well, it's day thirty-eight today. Nothing special. I tol Luke yesterday about my horrible dreams. I keep having these awful dreams that I smoke. I wake up and I feel so guilty. It takes a while for me to shake it off. I have almost cried a few times because I felt so dissapointed in myself. But then I realize that it was just a dream and I get over it. It still leaves me with a funny feeling in my stomach though. I am so paranoid about losing Luke it's not even funny.
Yeah, honey, I know you can tell.
No one else reads this, so it doesn't matter. I had two supporters on my first day, but since then, no body has come back. Oh well. It's still an accomplishment for me.
So, now I am working towards goal number two, which of course is the two-month marker. This event will take place on June 29th.

So, I'll end by saying: 23 days until Goal No.: 2